Trent Reznor appearance on the Gonzo Show
By Zane Lowe for MTV2 Gonzo Show on April 6, 2005
TR: You may.
ZL: Good to see you!
TR: Good to see you too.
ZL: Right on man. Youāre back with us, with this band of yours. Youāve got a few new players hanging out with you, doing some shows, and more importantly youāve got this album now, youāve got āWith Teethā, which youāre playing live and youāre representing, and obviously youāre very proud of otherwise you wouldnāt have attached your name to it and put it on the shelf. How does it feel now thinking about the record, you know, getting close for people to interpret it and listen to it?
TR: It feels pretty good. I mean, this whole, the whole setup, really from when I started working on this, ātil up to this exact moment, everything is really falling into place. It feels strange. It feels right for a change, you know. And who know what will happen as far as public response, but um, and that moment is coming - judgement day ā but it feels good. I feel like Iāve put my best foot forward and Iām proud of whatās there, and thatās all I can do.
ZL: You mentioned before that, you know, for once it feels like things have actually fallen into place. I mean, was there a time in your life that you were like āGod, I think Iām actually born with this dysfunction surrounding my creative pursuitā?
TR: Pretty much all of my life, yea *laughs* Iāve had a lot of that... feeling, but things at the momentā¦
ZL: Rollinā!
TR: Iāve got very little to bitch about.
ZL: Things are rockinā man. Youāre looking well as well.
TR: Thank you.
ZL: Weāre getting a lot of questions from the planet, MTV2europe.com. Weāve got a veritable bible here from people who want to ask you, and a lot of them focus on the fact that youāre looking pretty buff. I think a lot of people want to know what youāre bench-pressing at the moment actually, cause youāre looking in shape!
TR: Yea, I donāt put a number... I donāt attach a number to things like that.
ZL: *laughs* right, but you look like youāre definitely having maximum weight and minimum repetition cause youāve got some muscles going on there!
TR: Well.., you know, itās a long tour ahead of us, I'm afraid Iām going to have to kick some ass, and hey if Iām going to talk shit about people, Iām going to have to defend myself. *laughs*
ZL: *laughs* we wondered whether those days were gone, but you know, we pray that they havenāt. We pray that thereās still a little bile in the system.
TR: *laugh* donāt worry, donāt worry.
ZL: *laugh* Letās get straight into it right now, with one of these questions. Tea or coffee? Letās start with a nice simple one from Miss Morbid Desire. Do you drink tea or coffee or both?
TR: Coffee.
ZL: Right, and how do you have it?
TR: *pauses*
ZL: Straight black?
TR: I could make a smart quip right now, but Iāll just say āblackā.
ZL: Yea I know, all coffee gags have been done a billion times before...
TR: Thatās true.
ZL: ...and theyāve been out-ruled on this show. What music is kind of inspiring you at the moment? Now your album is done, I guess youāre in a position to listen to a lot more records without feeling torn between your own creative pursuit and kinda listening to what other people are doing, other ideas. It must be kind of nice.
TR: Um, it is... I mean... yea... I have paid attention to kinda whatās going on, and occasionally a thing comes up that I think is pretty inspiring. I like, I like DFA productions... have stood out to me.
ZL: Well youāve asked them, youāve got them to remix, to have a crack at āThe Hand That Feedsā.
TR: We did... yea, I really liked the LCD Soundsystem record. Just the occasional thing that pops up that I think is pretty good.
ZL: Right, okay. Well, there you go, thatās the first couple of questions from the planet out of the way. Weāre going to come back after this and weāre going to talk in detail about the making of āWith Teethā with Trent Reznor.
ZL: Ah, Trent Reznor is hanging out with us today on the brown couch. Comfy, aināt she?
TR: Itās nice.
ZL: Eh, makes you feel good! Right on! Back with a new album called āWith Teethā. A whole bunch of songs that feature together in one consistent listen, and is that difficult for you to achieve? You know, when your making a record, just think how itās going ā the first song is so important when people hear that first track, and then you know, track three tends to be the single, if youāre looking throughout history...
TR: Right.
ZL: ...and do you look on it on those terms?
TR: Well, this record started off as more of a... I started off doing it kind of like I did āThe Downward Spiralā. I had an idea for kind of an arc of the story and a concept, and a title and a number of song titles, and a starting point, an ending point, a resolution and all the trimmings. And when I started actually writing the songs to fill in the blanks, I found that for a number of reasons, maybe just being in a clear head space, maybe having more confidence as I started writing ā I realised what I was doing was good, it could have been the way I wrote the record ā I started with words, and did it, did demos on a piano, instead of writing in the studio. There wasnāt any real reason I chose to do it that way, other than that it felt like the right thing to do, but as I was working on the record, the songs started to stand on their own, and I thought they were⦠I allowed myself to think that they are good on their own and trying to jam them into this vehicle, this kinda construct of a story, felt, felt like I was forcing the issue. It started to feel a little pretentious.
ZL: It must have been a relief to be able let go of that in a way ā to be able to say āYou know what, this is... thatās served its purposeā, got that experience...
TR: Yea, a lot of rules Iāll come up with serve their purpose to get things going. I know they might change, but sometimes having regulations and restrictions help me focus on what needs to get done.
TR: I donāt have a band that sounds a certain way. I donāt have⦠Iām not being dictated to by others what I need to be like, so Iāll start with kind of general rules, and sometimes they change, but I think, as Iāve had some time to think about how this record has progressed, and had to look back at it, the main thing that seems different is Iāve had an unusual confidence that would allow me to throw those rules out, or allow me to say at some point, āYou know, it doesnāt need all this crap on it. I think itās good the way it is.ā And that also happened when it came time to arrange the songs from taking it from demo to final version. I went from Los Angeles, where I now live, to New Orleans where my studio is, and the plan was to flesh them out, and fill all the cracks with lots of stuff, little secrets and backwards this and that and you know, thereās the obligatory satanic messages that have to go in. Part of my deal with Satan is to put those in.
ZL: Of course, of course. Represent!
TR: Hey I got eternal youth out of the deal so, you knowā¦
ZL: Right, thatās fine!
TR: *laughs* but as I started trying to do it, I realised that it didnāt really need that stuff. It might be confidence, or it could be laziness, you know, but if felt like I was okay letting some things go, and that even carried through to, say a song like āThe Hand That Feedsā or the last track on the record āRight Where It Belongsā ā both of those, when I was writing them, the first voice that pops up in my head says, āI canāt do this ā too accessible, too pop, too catchy, too...ā. That was, you know it would be safe for me to make a 14 minute art epic, because Iāve kind of done it, and no oneās going to make fun of you for doing that.
ZL: And youāve got the fans in place who will appreciate it and buy it.
TR: Maybe, but I wrote some songs that felt like āWell these are pretty catchy!ā I didnāt write them to buy a new pool, you know, I wrote them because they just, they sounded good to me, and at the end of the day, I felt like itās a strong, itās a strong song. Like a track like āThe Hand That Feedsā kind of jumps out of the speakers after first listen.
ZL: It sounds like classic Nine Inch Nails to me, and I mean I know youāve said this before about how accessible that song is, and absolutely there are hooks all over that track, and itās great ā it sounds great on the radio, the video looks great on MTV, you know, but itās certainly not overly accessible ā it sounds like youāve made a pop song, it sounds like a Nine Inch Nails hit.
TR: Well, looking at the collection of things, I think itās on one end of the spectrum, and that always brings up a āuh-ohā, and really that āuh-ohā feeling is me worried about what people will think, and thatās not really being honest with myself.
ZL: I mean this, obviously, with utmost respect, that as well as the world has changed, so perhaps your platform isnāt as vast anymore to be able to say, āIām going to really push the boat out. Iām going to challenge people as much as I could.ā But ultimately, with this record, maybe you need to be more direct. You need to remind people that this is exactly what I do and this is who I am and this is how *bleep* straight ahead I can be.
TR: I know what youāre saying there, and Iām not taking offence to it, but it really wasnāt why this came out the way it did ā this record. I think that the record as a whole is more accessible, certainly than The Fragile. It wasnāt... it really wasnāt āuh-oh, Iāve been away being an addict somewhere. Iāve got to put out a record and Iāve got toā¦ā You know, career has always come second to trying to make the best record I can make, you know, and itās... it might sound pretentious to say, but I feel good about everything Iāve put out I really believe in, and I think Iāve done the best I can do at the time, and been as honest with myself as I can be, and I sleep good at night knowing that, you know, and when this record was being written, it was kind of under the assumption, you know I got into this story with you elsewhere, but getting clean and getting your life in order, which is where Iāve been in the last several years, teaches you humility, and a humble nature that Iāve never really known before, and in the context of all that, the idea of still having a career was something that would be nice, but it could be gone, and if it is gone itās okay, you know, I can still try to make the best music that I can, and this record came out the way it did and then itās interesting and itās kind of exciting to see that it is being received as well as it is, so far. But thatās a by-product of the record, not so much the plan to get that by making a record like that, and it wasnāt... I didnāt make this record to be the opposite of āThe Fragileā, it just, when I started to work on it, this is what felt good to me, felt like the right way to do it.
TR: I sat down to write this record with a new set of tools and abilities than I had when I did āThe Fragileā. āThe Fragileā ā I was⦠I can see now clearly I was on a slippery slope headed to disaster, and I couldnāt think and I was terrified, and I couldnāt think clearly enough to write lyrics really, and I didnāt have great lyrical concepts, but I could improvise in the studio indefinitely, and that record grew into this big blob of what it is, because thatās what I could do at that time, thatās the best thing I could do. I listen to it now ā āThe Fragileā ā and I feel that um...
ZL: Yea, how do you feelā¦
TR: Iām proud of that record, but it feels really weird to be, because itās like⦠I know Iām about to walk off a cliff after I finished that record, and I can now hear insightsā¦
ZL: Can you take yourself out of that and hear that within the music as well, and hearā¦
TR: I can hear whatās coming, but I couldnāt see at the time, you know when I did āThe Downward Spiralā, I thought I was writing a kind of amplification or projection of me. I didnāt know that I was predicting the future, you know, I didnāt know I was writing a script that I was about to then execute.
ZL: And why would you? You know, when you listen to āThe Downward Spiralā, you think āGod, it canāt get much worse than thisā, you know āIāve been through the worst of it surely at this pointā.
TR: Yea but it did, and it does *laughs*, you know.
ZL: What freaks me out, and I tried to touch on this before when we spoke, but what really freaks me out is when you talk about this era of your life, and I met you for 45 minutes once and had a proper sit-down one-on-one with you about āThe Fragileā in the time you were doing all the press and promo⦠it really didnāt strike me that you were in that state. Now, most people who are in bands, who are struggling with drugs, or with whatever ā addictions, it could be addictions to drama, anything ā itās a lot more obvious with them and if anything, they use it to promote their records or they use it to sort of say āHey Iām a *bleep* out of control hereā, you know, they make the most of that time in their life, and then they let it go. It seems like you kept this very much within.
TR: Well, because you were seeing me at a phase where you missed the part where I was bragging about it. Iād already learned thatās big trouble, now Iāve got to pretend everythingās okay, and thatās the time you caught me, at that phase, and, yea I donāt even like thinking about that time, so thanks for bringing that up, manā¦
ZL: Yea, youāre welcome man.
ZL: Right, this from Jay Hybrid, how did you discover the visual artist or graphic designer to do the artwork for your record? How do you go about making that decision? Itās got a uniformity to it?
TR: On this record? This time around, Rob Sheridan is the guy thatās done all the graphics for us, and I found him before āThe Fragileā came out, and he just had a fan website, and we hired him to do a website for us, and kind of go on the road with us and document what was going on and, his work led to the āAnd All That Could Have Beenā DVD ā he filmed that, and we just immediately hit it off and have the same sensibilities, so when things came around this time, the typical procedure would be to find a fine artist and collaborate with them, and have another art director that puts it together, and Robās ideas are really good, and we just said āLetās just do this thing,ā and he also directed āThe Hand That Feedsā video, andā¦
ZL: Which is good, a good solid performance video, I think, that one.
TR: I thought so too. You know, to me it was like, being in a band and itās time to do videos - and I donāt do videos myself - you kind of get thrust into this position of, you know, if youāre an arty cool band, pick from one of five directors and you can think off the top of your head who they are, you know, and hope they come up with a clever idea that gets you on MTV and everyone is happy ever after, but it doesnāt feel sincere to me, it feels⦠you know, I think Spike Jones is a great directorā¦
ZL: Michel Gondryās a great director...
TR: Michel Gondry yea, Chris Cunningham, Romanek, you know, down the line, you know the ??? ones because they always have the best videos. So you end up either taking a chance on somebody thatās unknown, that youāre... that has itās own set of problems, or youāre playing it as safe as you can be by hiring one of the few guys to hopefully make something that attaches itself to your songā¦
ZL: Well it certainly did that, you knowā¦
TR: This time around it just felt like itās not the right thing to do. Letās just - the song is good, I think the band is good - letās just have the band play the song and hopefully do it in a way thatās not tooā¦
ZL: Corny or?
TR: Thatās not boring, you know...
ZL: Yea, exactly. Itās also nice at the end, I mean obviously youāve got like the instruments at the ground, the rock feedback and stuff, which takes you back to āMarch of the Pigsā and stuff like that. I canāt remember, was āMarch of the Pigsā actually, was that recorded live music as well?
TR: āMarch of the Pigsā was everything live.
ZL: Thatās what I thought.
TR: We played, literally played the song 15 times and whatever one was the least shitty was the one we ended up using.
ZL: Did you think about doing that with āThe Hand That Feedsā as well?
TR: We were going to do it, and then I got beat down by a number of reasons why you werenāt supposed to do that, and I concededā¦
ZL: Right, fair enough. Do you have to do that very often nowadays, or are you still in a position to pretty much control your own?
TR: I can do what I wanna do, but often when itās presented to me in a way that āHereās the upside and the downsideā, I weigh it out and then itās my call as to what I think is right.
ZL: Sure, so you just take it on as advice effectively.
TR: *pauses* Itās advice, no one tells me what to doā¦
ZL: NO ONE tells Trent what to do!
TR: Thatās... remember that.
ZL: Weāre running out of time here, weāve only got a couple more minutes, so Iām going to race through some questions from MTV2Europe.com for our very special guest, Trent. High-fives man, Iām enjoying myself today!
TR: Me too!
ZL: Alright umā¦
TR: If it was all this easyā¦
ZL: There you go. Well, you know what, Iām open! Iām ready to go! Take me out on the road. Iāll do all your press. Different territories, Iāll get a linguist, linguistic coach!
TR: *laughs*
ZL: Your recent concerts are both physically and mentally demanding, obviously - here we go - obviously youāve prepared yourself physically for the rigours involved ā everyoneās noticing the physique, youāre looking good! How do you prepare yourself mentally? Wigglebutt wants to know. I mean, are there little rituals you do, without giving too much away, before shows, you knowā¦
TR: Uhh, not really. There used to be a ritual that was, involved copious amounts of Tequila *laughs*
ZL: Those days are done!
TR: No, really right now, itās just about⦠often Iāll get really nervous before a show, even now, and so itās just a matter of me reassuring myself everythingās okay, as kind of stupid as that soundsā¦
ZL: Yea in 2 hours itās gonna be done and yeaā¦
TR: As soon as I walk onstage, Iām fine, but itās that half hour before of⦠panic. Not really panic, but a mild sense of āsomethingās not rightā.
ZL: Without crossing the line of journalistic professionalism, where do you stand in terms of what you entitle yourself to do and donāt do on the road ā obviously drugs are out of the question ā do you still entitle yourself to have a drink? Do you⦠are you allowed to have a drink now?
TR: No I donāt drink or do anything like that.
ZL: Right, so youāre pretty much completely clean now?
TR: I am *pauses* 100 percent clean.
ZL: Well youāre looking better for it. Has it been hard though, to find things to replace that aspect of your life though? āCause thatās what people say, is itās kind of a replacement factor to a certain extent.
TR: Well, one of the reasons that I didnāt jump right back into doing a record and touring immediately after getting clean was I wanted to feel comfortable in my own skin before I went into a situation that had prior, previously got me into trouble, you know, and it wasnāt touring that got me into trouble, you know, it was just the fact that *pauses* Iām an addict, and I happen to be in a lifestyle that maybe accelerated it a bit, but itās not why it happened. So, you know, I enter into this phase of touring and even doing the record with a pretty good, safe ground base of knowing who I am and what I am and feeling good about things. I donāt, Iām not in a white knuckly situation and Iām not uncomfortable with whatās around me andā¦
ZL: Good. Got a juicer?
TR: I do have a juicer.
ZL: Yea, yea yea, Iām big into juicers right now.
TR: Yea, whatās your flavour?
ZL: Carrot, beetroot and apple mix I think goes down very well.
TR: A little ginger in there? Spice it up?
ZL: Thatās what Iām talking about right there! But then after you have the beetroot juice, if then you have a bowel movement and you find itās slightly⦠donāt panic!
TR: I thought I lost a kidney once, but⦠till I learned what was happening.
ZL: Itās the power of the root man, itās the power of the root!
TR: *laughs*
ZL: Itās good to see you dude.
TR: Good to see you too.
ZL: Thanks for coming in and hanging out. Trent Reznor, Nine Inch Nails, of course the album āWith Teethā is coming your way, and youāll get plenty of chances to see them play live, weāll keep them on the road for as long as we can.
Transcribed by Tallulidal on #ets